Reflecting back on 2010 - It was definitely a good year for me despite the rocky start in the beginning. I was drowning in my projects at the start of the year, (I know, a great way to welcome the year for me.) which explains my absence from the online world. I just couldn't juggle (being the only designer in my internship company) between work and personal life, hurting my social life badly. But I'm glad it did. 'Cos at least now I know who's true to me and who's well.. in a ride with me.
I'm also proud to say that I've finally graduated with a Diploma in Mass Communication from Ngee Ann Polytechnic! (My GPA is pretty decent, just so you know) Upon completion of my three-year course in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, I applied for a place in a Singapore University, NTU, to be precise. I decided to pursure a Degree in Arts, Design and Media but however, my application proved to be unsuccessful. Besides, I wasn't quite sure if that was the direction that I wanted to be heading in the future. I guess everything happens for a reason, yes? And I decided to further my studies in an overseas university - Sydney pursuing a Degree in Communication Studies. Of course, I got in. Hehe.
Phuket.. lovely place. Shopping! Beautiful sea. With great friends!
The Express Nike Video. Can't Touch This.
I probably overplayed this video a million times alr.
And who could forget (I did, actually) that I was on Berita Harian?! I still hate the stupid headline, which reads - 'Sleeping in School'. Deserves a WTF, seriously.
Well, I guess that sums up my 2010! Anything more than what I've just written will probably involve my experience in NS, and no I don't like blogging about my NS life because it will bore you ultimately, and we do not want that, eh?
NKOTB VS. BSB - MEDLEY OF THEIR HIT SONGS.
Then, I got reminded of this a few years back.
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If my body was on fire, ooh
You'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I'll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, )
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, ) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same.
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Well, four of us (including the birthday girl) came to a conclusion that we'll never go ice skating again. It was the kind of experience that you'll only try once.. and that's it. Yeah.
(Buffet dinners are always the best!)
How interesting, I thought. I decided to take a peek and look at what video the lady beside me was viewing on her laptop. The TV show was familiar. I know this one! Then, Jeff Probst appeared on her screen. I can't believe it! She's watching Survivor?!?! I looked at her judging her from top to bottom... How could she be a Survivor fan?! She doesn't even look like one! She was probably in her mid-30s, probably had a rough day at work and is now heading home to her family, while busily googling the youtube links for the various episodes on Survivor. Once she has gotten the links she wanted, she opened her notepad and pasted the links there, just to serve as a reminder as to which episodes she has yet to watch.
Being a huge Survivor fan myself, I was tempted to strike a conversation with her. Possibly about the latest Survivor results.. or even the next season - Survivor: The Redemption Island. But instead, I didn't. I hesitated for a while.. but I just couldn't do it. Weak, you may call me. I continued listening to my music and stealing glances at her laptop every now and then. She was watching a clip of Survivor Australia.. the scene where Mike fell into the campfire. She laughed. I laughed. Stupid fool. He could've won that season, if not for the incident.. I thought.
Bedok. The lady started packing her laptop into her bag. "Is she alighting here?" I decided. Fine. I'll talk to her. Give me some time.
Tanah Merah. Shit. I'm scared to do it! Then I did it.. what normal Singaporeans would not have done if they were me. (Usual Singaporeans like to do what we call, 'Minding your own Business'. I poked her.
(involving a lot of Survivor Talk)
Me: You know, you could go to this particular Youtube user. He has all the Survivor seasons. I figured you were searching for the seasons.. and you could start from here.
Lady: *Taking out her headphones* Oh wow. Thanks. Are you a Survivor fan too?
Me: Yes! Huge fan, actually. The current season (Nicaragua) was boring as hell, don't you think? I guess they could not outdo the Survivor: All Stars season.
Lady: No. It wasn't that bad actually. There were far worse seasons in the past. Nicaragua was quite okay.
Me: I guess so. I can't wait for the next season actually. The Redemption Island. Seems like it could be something. It could be a big success.. or a big epic failure for them actually.
Tampines. We finally alighted the train. Funny how we just met each other inside the train and now we're talking like as if we knew each other for a long time when we've only just met.. minutes ago! There were certain topics that we didn't see eye to eye.. but it definitely was a very random experience, for me.. an eye-opener. But this random experience actually did make my day so much better. Who knew talking to a random stranger would be this much fun? Especially when you both have a common topic to talk about. It just makes the journey back home so much faster and you won't be that lonely on your ride back home.
Then, we finally said our goodbyes.. and off we went to become strangers towards each other once again.
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Live your childhood over again.. Most definitely yes! When we were kids, we didn't have anything to worry about. Sure there's disappointments from the people we love.. but I seemed to handle it much better back then. Just as long as I can come back to right where I am standing right now, Yes I would, just so I can better appreciate it the second time 'round.
Have grown up in a different decade or era.. Weird question. I'd say yes. Probably back in my parents generation. I wanna see how both my parents fell in love with each other.. and if I could, probably even tell my mom, "Don't marry the guy. Go for someone else." But then again, she'd probably think I'm a lunatic and send me to the Mental Hospital. But it'd be really cool. It's like watching a real life movie. When my dad would wait for her when she finishes work.. I wanna listen to what exactly he did/said to get my mother's heart. Haha. Silly me.
Have been a more competitive kid.. I guess not. I was never competitive unless in the areas where I'm good at. When it comes to designs, I'm critical but academic-wise, if you beat me then fine. Whatever makes you happy. From my experience, the competitive kids never got that much friends in life, as they didn't take the time to smell the roses and by the time they reach to where I am at now, it's a bit too late for them.
Have learned more in the "class room of life" than in school.. Of course. Did you apply the algebra or the binomial theorem in real life? I'd call you crazy. But when you fell down and managed to get back up on your feet all on your own.. you learn so much more. You learn to be independent. You learn not to be careless and watch where you're going. Okay, I guess you get my point.
Have been a leader or a follower.. I suppose, both. I prefer being a follower though. It's tough being a leader 'cos you are the queen bee of the group. Sometimes, I think I follow way too much and I wished I lead more often.
Take back something you did, if so, what.. Watched a cat fall down from a few storeys up. I regretted not doing anything to save the poor cat. I wished I did.. at least something. I'm still haunted by it even till now due to a guilty conscience. So whenever I see a cat now, I make sure I treat it nicely but who am I kidding, that will never erase what happened in the past but it does make me feel better though.
Have been nicer to your parents.. Probably yes, when I was younger. But now, I'm treating them nicely.. right? I go shopping with my mom. Go for concerts with her. Movies. Haha.
Have changed your appearance.. Definitely. I hated being fat. I hated being in TAF club. (I never knew if you reverse TAF Club backwards... it means FAT Club) I would have put in more effort to lose all that extra pounds. Appearance wise.. It's always the hair. I just wished it wasn't that curly to begin with.
Have had more belongings.. Belongings in terms of bags? Oh yes. I had plenty of school bags. And books? Yeah, there's the library for that.
Have worked harder in school.. Not really. I'm happy with my grades in school. Getting good grades doesn't make you popular. Doing stupid things.. gets you those friends. I was always sleeping in class but thank god I had Aishah, who was seated beside me, and she copied notes for me. She'd ask me, "Are you going to sleep? Do you want me to copy the notes for you?" And I'd be like, "Omg yes. You are such a lifesaver." End of the day, I got better grades than her. Moral of the story: Just sleep in school.
Have made more friends.. Acquaintances.. yes. But these are the kind of things you can't change. Sure you can get more friends but you can't change their attitude towards you. I'd probably have done the same and remain close to those that deserved it.. but then look where it got me now. Zilch.
I first discovered this next band from One Tree Hill, one of my all-time favourite TV drama series and I have instantly taken a liking to them. I present to you...
It's been years since I last got hooked to a proper indie/rock record (and have moved on to Pop ever since then) so I'm definitely happy with my great discovery. The Honorary Title is an Indie/Rock band from New York with Jarrod Gorbel as the lead vocalist. They have since released two albums (Anything Else But The Truth, Scream and Light Up The Sky) and five EPs (The Honorary Title, Untouched and Intact, The City on Christmas and Ten Years Older).
I've finally gotten my hands on their sophomore album, Scream and Light Up The Sky and it proved to be an enjoyable listen from start to finish, which is quite rare for me since I tend to get restless in the middle of it. It's a brilliant record filled with beautiful melodies and well-written lyrics. It's not your typical indie record that you can head bang to... but Scream and Light Up The Sky.. has this very special and distinctive sound, mature sounding yet emotional at the same time.
It wasn't that hard choosing my favourite song from the album. Plenty, to be honest. But only one song from the record really stood out for me at the end of the day - Stay Away.
No, I can't dance less it's slow or sadFrontman Jarrod Gorbel mentioned that 'Stay Away' is about the romantic dynamic between two individuals when one person has more emotionally invested than the other. I completely agree to that.
To a song that's far less obvious
If you're using me, do it slowly
Make it last until I have to go
Stay Away is an utterly heart breaking song of the internal conflict of a one-sided relationship that isn't going anywhere. I get depressed listening to it and I've known of friends having this sort of a situation and this song could probably be the story of their lives.
"If you're using me, do it slowly" - My favourite lyric from this song. It's like, You know the other party isn't good for you but you still want to be with them. "Make it last until I have to go" - I'll leave you when I'm ready to get over you. Sigh.
P.s I hope I didn't get you depressed listening to that though.
Labels: Music Monday
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Time Left Alone At Home... My parents and sister were out to somewhere, can't exactly remember where but I was alone at home nd my only companion were my usual toys and action figures. I got bored of playing with them after a while so I decided to make a house for them using only cardboard and construction paper. (Don't judge me.) I used a penknife for the first time and everything was going smoothly until I accidentally cut myself. It's not your usual small little cut. This cut was huge and pierced deep inside my skin. Blood was flowing out of my fingers like a tap that can not be stopped. I ran to the toilet without realising that my blood was all over the floor. Next thing I knew, my mom came back home and started screaming just because she saw blood. That was the last time I ever saw my penknife. Haha.
Day at School... My first day in Ngee Ann will always be a classic story. I brought all of my orientation booklets.. including the one that came with a map. And yes, I got lost in Ngee Ann. I was supposed to go to LT 79 but it was not written in the map or anywhere! And I couldn't ask anyone. So I flipped my Ngee Ann map wide open in the eyes of everyone. It was embarrassing. I called Nadee in the end (cos she was enrolled there too!), panicking and asking her on directions to get to my first lecture. I was slightly late for lecture and then it was lunch. Everyone went on their separate ways and as for me.. I got shy to eat alone. Thank god (once again) Nadee called me asking if I wanna meet her for lunch. So yes, Nadee saved my life during my first day of school. I'll always be grateful. Haha.
Punished for doing something bad... My parents always punished me for every single thing I did wrong. The worst was when they used a clothing hanger to spank my butt until the clothing hanger broke. And we were running around the house and I was so scared, I ran to the toilet and locked myself in there. And then i took a pee. My mom kept saying I pee-d because I was scared of her. But I seriously needed to pee at that point of time!
Childhood crush... Her name was Nilam. In primary school we had this small little diary of ourselves that we pass around to each other so that people can write stuff about themselves in there. It was cool actually. Nilam was my classmate and I guess I thought she was pretty. I was shy and didn't dare to approach her.. not even a hello. And she was always with her inseparable little group of girlfriends. So one day, I did something bad. Together with another classmate of mine, I stole her diary just so I could read personal stuff about her. Little details about her favourite drink, movie got me excited. I'm such a stalker. I remember she was in a total frenzy when she found out that her diary went missing. She suspected that my friend took it so when we couldn't take it anymore.. we left her book in the library and told her we saw it there. She believed that she left her diary there. Things moved on from there and well.. the rest of the story? Well.. Not that interesting.
Experience with death... I've had this feeling once and I can still remember it vividly.. even till now. As always, I was jaywalking on the road outside my house without bothering to wait for the traffic light. With my earphones on, I just jaywalked like as if I own the road. And there comes a car coming at full speed towards me. I wanted to run but for some reason, my legs stayed glued to the ground. I froze with my eyes wide open. Thank god the car stopped in the nick of time just inches away from me. I apologized and from that day on, I always always make sure that I wait for the traffic light to turn green before crossing the road... unless in certain cases when there's really no car in sight.
Great Accomplishment... When I first saw my O Level results, I was ecstatic! I stared hard at the results slip just because it was hard to believe those were even my results! My form teacher was like, "Wow! Amirul. You did it. These are very good results! You've improved by 5 grades in most of your subjects!" I was proud of myself. All those late nights burning the midnight oil were worth it. And I even passed my Pure Biology paper, which I didn't bother studying for JSYK. Haha.
Bought these 4 movies over at Nex last night, while I was out with Xin Mun just because they were dirt cheap (Buy 3 Get 1 Free; $6.95 ea at Laser Flair) and also partly because today was my off day, I thought of watching 'em all. Ended up sleeping throughout the afternoon. Haha! But Sex and the City 2 was absolutely hilarious!
I'm gonna start this Music Mondays blog post from now onwards. My mind is like a jukebox. In times when I'm unsure of what song to listen to in my iPod, it'll just start playing any random song from any music artiste. And that artist / song.. will be part of my Music Mondays.
Peyton Sawyer (Hilarie Burton from OTH) believed that music saved her life and as I was re-watching past episodes of One Tree Hill, what she said remains etched in my memory. Funny how I could still remember what she said.. even till now. Why? Because I believe in her theory. I believe in her. I believe music can and will save someone's life.
"You know, I’ve got this theory; There are two kinds of people in the world. There are lyric people and music people. You know, the lyric people tend to be analytical. They know, all about the meaning of the song. They’re the ones you see with the CD insert out like five minutes after buying it, pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. Then there’s the music people.. who could care less for the lyrics as long as it's just got like, a good beat and you could dance to it. I don’t know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I’m not, let me just say this: Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you. I believe that. And for me, it’s usually song lyrics."
- Peyton Sawyer
The one band that still stays with me after all these years of teen angst: Jack's Mannequin. I may seem to have forgotten about them until I was watching Alex Goot and his rendition of 'Dark Blue' and that's when I realised, "Hey I know this song!" and in an instant I knew it was Jack's Mannequin.
I was exceptionally pleased to find out that they had a new album just last year. Song after song, I was inspired. Inspired to do a lot of things. It's like this feeling you get when you rediscover a band that you loved so much in the past and you just wanted the whole world to listen to them. And that's when I knew, I have to blog about them. I must. My favourite songs (it was hard to choose) from them include Mixed Tape, Dark Blue and Swim.
Labels: Music Monday
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