Santana & her mom.
“Look, I have to tell you a secret. A secret that I've kept hidden for a long time... I’ve tried so hard to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside. But every day just feels like a war. And I walk around so mad at the world. But I’m really just fighting with myself. I don’t wanna fight anymore. I’m just too tired. I have to just be me.”I too, have my own fair share of secrets. Though I prefer to keep most of it to myself until I think I'm ready to talk about it, I do share some of them with close friends and family members. Because keeping secrets inside of you for far too long - It slowly kills you.
"Everyone has secrets, Santana. They're called secrets for a reason."
The last time I shared a secret with a friend nearly killed our relationship. Heck, I was supposed to feel relieved for telling them because they are a huge part of my life and they deserve to know what it is I'm hiding from them. Most of the time, I don't seek for acceptance. But I felt afraid because for the first time in my life, someone else had the upper hand in our relationship and whatever he/she does next could either make or break my life for good.
But I'm glad it's all good now. And watching Glee? It really gets me sometimes. This time 'round, it hit a nerve because I could relate to the situation so well, it's a little scary.
Though it took me a lot of pain and trouble to realize that sometimes, Ignorance is Bliss. And secrets are called as such for a reason and never was I going to put myself in the same situation ever again. At least not any time soon.