Quoting Melanie C's latest single, 'Think About It', "You only regret the things that you don't do. Do what you want to!". And that's exactly what I've been trying to do. I've done quite a number of stupid things in the past. I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from doing those stupid mistakes, but then again it is those 'mistakes' that defines me for who I am right now.
I came here to talk about the naughty things that I've done in Primary school and how I've gotten away with it most of the time. Some of it involves.. Skipping classes, Leaving home early without anyone knowing, Stealing from the book fair every single time (and each time I did, I promised myself that I'd return the money or the book in the future.. one way or another), Jeopardizing a science project that belonged to this guy that I disliked, Vandalising the school walls with a black spray can and there's probably more where that came from but I do not wish to incriminate myself so I'll just keep hush about it. Hah!
But there's something else.
Something that I'm rather shy to talk about;
My First Kiss.
After the first (I was blushing), I looked up and said, "You know..You're my first kiss."But was it that perfect? How is having someone slobbing all over your mouth with so much saliva and a lot of lip biting considered perfect or even a great kiss? Not that great, if you asked me.
The reply I got was, "It was perfect."
I've always dreamt of how my first kiss would be like and how romantic it'd be. Maybe we would be sitting under the moon, doing nothing but staring into each other's eyes. We'd be talking but we'd be kissing each other.. without even touching each other. Cheesy, much? I'm such a girl when it comes to these kinda things but I just wanted it to be perfect. (Perfectionist, much?) I blame it on all of the romance movies that I've watched and the romance-themed novels that I've been reading. I blame you.
I wish I hadn't given my first kiss up that easily. Here's why: You never ever forget your first kiss ever. And you never forget the person whom you did it with. Where it happened. How it happened. The events leading to the first kiss. Omg. It's too much.
At that point of time when it happened, it definitely felt perfect and how everything was falling in to place. So yeah, you fall in love and you can't help it after going on numerous dates with that someone, you decided it's time.
Thinking about it now and as ridiculous as it may sound, I felt like my mouth was sexually violated. I hated my first kiss. I definitely wasn't ready yet. In fact, I felt like it was quite forced. I wish it hadn't happened too soon.
I'm not saying that you should not have your first kiss happening too soon. But sometimes, when your body tells you that you are ready for it, just know that it's lying. It's a mistake.. waiting to happen. In this kind of situations, your heart knows better than your body.
But at least I'm glad that the people whom I've kissed have all complimented me on being a great kisser.
Don't believe me? Let's kiss then. Heh.